any port in a storm

"Every man, when he gets quiet, when he becomes desperately honest with himself, is capable of uttering profound truths. We all derive from the same source. There is no mystery about the origin of things. We are all part of creation, all kings, all poets, all musicians; we have only to open up, to discover what is already there." 

Henry Miller

i think that society set me up for failure by allowing me to be a child.

i believe in ghosts and wizards and zombie apocalypses and werewolves. i believe that one day i’ll be rich and famous and happy. i believe that everything will work out, even though i have no reason to. i believe in all of these impractical things, but i can’t believe that one day i won’t be alive anymore. it is impossible for me to envision a world in which i don’t exist in some way. out of all of the endless fantasies that exist within my own mind, that is absolutely unfathomable.

"I felt a haunting loneliness sometimes, and felt it in others — young clerks in the dusk, wasting the most poignant moments of night and life." 

The Great Gatsby

coping 101 

when i feel worthless, i clean.
when i feel uninformed and self-centered, i read the news.
when i feel alone, i become more of an island.

wait, that’s not right.

"This is the song that named the record. I was sick of looking at life like I was letting everyone down—like I was letting myself down. This song chronicles everything that came together to show me that I wasn’t doing things the right way. I used to destroy myself. I’m still not really sure why. I guess I had myself convinced that there was some sort of artistic merit to it. I mention it in the chorus and at the end of the song. In other bands, I used to write depressing lyrics even if I wasn’t depressed because that’s what I thought I was supposed to do. I used to break my face open with my microphone on stage during the early Wonder Years tours because I felt like nobody gave a shit about me and that I shouldn’t give a shit about myself. This is a song about changing that. My whole life I would tend to look at things from the downside. It was time to flip the record over and see what else I had in me. This is a song for anyone who’s ever told me to keep my head up. You were right." 

Soupy on Washington Square Park

Day 01 - Guilty pleasure

For The Hopeless by The Years Gone By

I don’t actually have any guilty pleasures… Why feel guilty if it’s a pleasure? ;-) I guess if I did, it would be this ep.

i’m doing this 

Day 01 - Guilty pleasure
Day 02 - Something that inspires you
Day 03 - The five songs you would have with you on a desert island and why
Day 04 - What you imagine paradise to be like
Day 05 - A thank you letter to someone who has changed your life
Day 06 - Earliest thing you can remember
Day 07 - Favorite cover of your favorite song
Day 08 - Someone you think would make a good president
Day 09 - Five things you want to see change
Day 10 - A dream you had this past week described in detail
Day 11 - Favorite picture ever taken of yourself
Day 12 - Your favorite musical artist’s life story
Day 13 - A memory that never fails to make you laugh
Day 14 - Best mashup you’ve ever heard
Day 15 - A moment, phrase, or song that has changed your life the most.
Day 16 - Something that you want to do within the next five years.
Day 17 - What you want to remembered for.
Day 18 - A picture that makes you feel
Day 19 - A passage from a book that has touched you
Day 20 - A band that you immediately liked and the song that made you like them
Day 21 - Your favorite medium of art.
Day 22 - Someone you would give your life up for without question.
Day 23 - Most awkward first impression you feel you’ve ever given
Day 24 - Something you did as a child that other people remember you for.
Day 25 - Something you would do if no one stopped you or if you knew you wouldn’t fail.
Day 26 - Your definition of love.
Day 27 - Your definition of the meaning of life.
Day 28 - A moment you remember being completely happy in and a description of why you believe you were. What is your definition of happiness
Day 29 - What you live for.
Day 30 - Ways you believe you have grown over the past thirty days.

it is all going by entirely too fast, we are all growing up entirely too fast, and i am so afraid that i’m not enjoying it nearly enough.